Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Drs. Appointment #2: Diagnosis
Yesterday I went back to my Allergist/Immune Specialist to recieve my blood test results. What the Dr. was about to tell was not what I had expected or wanted to hear. I have been diagnosed with Celiac Disease, which basically means I cannot digest gluten proteins and when I eat gluten I will have a series of internal problems that are typical symptoms that could last up to weeks. My Dr has said that Celiac is still in research to find out if it is genetic or caused by trauma to the nervous system, also I really can't be told how long I have had this. I wouldn't be surprised if I have had it my whole life since I have been suffering from my symptoms for so long. I am happy to finally have some answers and a diagnosis but I am going through some emotions right now. I am not sure where to begin, there is so much to learn and mentally digest. I look forward to tackling this and feeling better. But the big worry right now is we don't have the funds to even re-grocery shop and gluten free foods can add up more expensively than regular foods. I still don't know how we are going to pay for all the Dr bills and blood tests. This has been really stressing me out about our financial bind. I am thankful that Robert has been really understanding and supportive about me needing to find out what has been wrong with me but I can't help but feel guilty for not finding the answers sooner when we had the money to do so. I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what to do or what to sell, what bills not to pay. I have applied to so many jobs and have had interviews but nothing is working out. My unemployment stopped coming because they are waiting on proof of my Dr appointments and diagnoses results in order to continue recieving checks. I am an emotional wreck right now. I have to have faith that we will get through this.