Friday, October 9, 2009
Lately I have been realizing that I have no idea what I'm doing. I don't know anything about pregnancy or babies. I don't have any younger siblings so all this stuff is so new to me. In our ward everyone pretty much already has children. I feel alone in my pregnancy. The girls that I consider my friends that are pretty much due around the same time as I am are all so far away from me that I don't have someone to be pregnant with and share my thoughts and feelings and what's normal, what's not. This is the depressing part of being the youngest child in the family by 12 years. The advice is old and the medical field is in constant forward change. I just want someone to relate to and be close with. I want to be social and I want my child to be social so I hope we can eventually move to a ward that has children around the age of mine or someone pregnant will move into our ward. Sounds silly, but I need this.