Okay, I know I'm gonna get razzed by everyone but seriously, you all can't change my mind. Only I am aware of how I feel, no one can feel what I am feeling. Not even Robert, as much as I wish he could.
I really hate being pregnant!
It feels awful, and no one tells you the truth about how it really is. It's like a conspiracy other mothers have going by saying how much they love being pregnant and how they never got sick or they never were tired etc. But secretly they are thinking that if they had to go through 9 months of complete misery then so does other women.
When I tell you I am never doing this again. Please leave it at that. I promise you, I will never do this again. Don't tell me that when I get to hold the baby I will forget it all. I promise you I wont forget, I am the type to remember traumatizing moments in my life. I will hold a grudge against my body forever. Yes, I am a woman, and maybe my body was made to bear children, but this body will only be bearing one child, not 5 to 10. I am not doing a disservice to my religion, there are plenty of other women who will be more than happy to bear 5 to 10 kids. They will make up for my loss. I am not on this Earth to push out as many kids as God will allow me. I am here to fulfill the purposes God had intended for me and I know what those purposes are. And if you know me you know that I feel breeding is overrated, go out and adopt.
Yes, today has been a bad day.