Tuesday, December 28, 2010

M.E.'s First Christmas

Yes, Santa spoiled this little girl. Her family spoiled her as well. But what can you expect? It was her first Christmas and she is super adorable. Spoiling her just seems natural.

M.E. received many learning toys like a drum, a musical push thing, a learning kitchen, books, and of course the necessities: clothes and shoes. I made her a dress and her Grammy made her a quilt. Her Auntie sent a play grocery bag with play food that rattles and pull apart. Her Uncle got her a squeaky Giraffe from Paris, she loves it! You think that with all these new toys she would be enjoying them right? Wrong. See below:

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Busy, Busy, Busy

Christmas is around the corner! I started my shopping back in August, I have been since November. I am still working on my sewing projects, mainly the ones I have decided to do last minute because I am so addicted to making cute things.

The best part is, is that the tree has been up and decorated since right after Thanksgiving. M.E. even helped decorate.

Then she found the Polar Express bell, and had fun jingling it. I eventually bought her, her own bell.

Lately, M.E. has been trying to stand up without help. She hasn't succeeded yet, but her positions sure are funny.

M.E. also likes to watch Nate Berkus with Mommy.

We also went to Disneyland. We plan on going again, the day before Christmas Eve.

It's been a fun few weeks of December. Can't wait for Christmas.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Miss Body Issues

Since delivering M.E., I have seen my body change and these changes have really thrown me into hatred for myself. I hate my body, I hate the way my clothes look draped on my body. I hate my body without clothing on. This "new" me is repulsive. Most women gain weight after having a baby. Why didn't I? I am so skinny. Disgustingly skinny. The kind of skinny where strangers stare at you and give you the "she must have an eating disorder" look. I haven't gotten that look in 10 years. I can see my bones. I look like I don't eat. My clothes hang on me. Some women's boobage gets bigger. Mine just shriveled up and died. I don't understand what happened.

I found a protein powder mix that is gluten free, and I have been working out trying to build muscle and weight. I haven't seen any results yet, but I'm truly hoping I will soon.

Why can't I just look like a woman instead of a 10 year old boy?

Friday, November 12, 2010

M.E. at 7 months

I realized a month went by without a post from us. I did this somewhat on purpose. I thought it would be nice for  Robert to post something on here and I deliberately chose not to make a post, so that he could. Well, he didn't. He lost his chance.

M.E. is growing so fast. 16 pounds already! She is literally a long baby. Hopefully she will be taller than me. She has already started to crawl and is getting very, very good at it. She giggles soo much and is an all around happy baby. Robert is supposed to post the crawling video....

 M.E. modeling the head band I won for her.

 M.E. and Mommy petting a goat. Mommy loves goats so much!
M.E. crawled over to the dog bed and decided to lounge on it.

M.E. getting some loves from Daddy.

M.E. and the pumpkin patch.

M.E. pondering the piece of hay.

We certainly have a beautiful daughter.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Weekend Get Away

This last weekend, Robert and I went to my dad's timeshare in Oxnard Shores. Pretty much my favorite beach. We were going to take M.E. along, but she still had a cold so she stayed with my mom. It ended up being just the two of us, and that is exactly what we needed.

We enjoyed a lovely walk on the beach Saturday morning. It was so warm and sunny. Not a good day to surf though. The waves were breaking way too close. Many people were out on their sail boats. We decided to look for sea shells and sea glass.

After the beach we headed down to Main Street, Ventura for the vintage and antique shops. We go so often that I didn't even think of getting pictures. Basically, it's the main street with all the hipsters and hipster stores along with antique shops, lovely restaurants, vintage shops and second hand donation stores.

We made our own dinner at the time share. Friday night, Robert made chicken Pad Thai and Saturday night he grilled up some tilapia for fajitas. I ended up getting hives from the tilapia (farm raised fish just doesn't agree with me)

Sunday morning after checking out of our stay, we ate at this cute little dinner. I got the eggs Florentine on a bed of spinach. Robert got the pumpkin pancakes with walnuts.

We had a great time together, but we really missed our little girl. I hope next time she can come with us.

A New Found Love for Bath Time

Since M.E. can sit up now, we took out her bath seat. She just sits in the tub and plays and splashes away. She loves her baths more than ever. It is so cute to see her having so much fun. Bath times do last a bit longer now that I scrubbing baby food out of every facial and neck crevice. Thankfully she doesn't mind. I really love this stage. I'm sure I say that about every stage though.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

6 Months and Counting!

Look at this super cute face! I love how fun and playful she is. Maw Maw (Robert's mom) got this fun jumpy for M.E. for her 6 mos. birthday. She has grown so much. She eats all the time, rolls over all the time, front to back - back to front. She is sitting up now and scooting backwards. She loves her puppies, loves to dance, and loves to be tickled. She is very alert and curious. Always watching people and will smile at anyone who pays attention to her. She surprises us everyday. Robert and I are both so in love with this babe! The dogs are so good with her. Nessie just wants to be with M.E. all the time. She is very motherly to her, always giving M.E. a "bath" or trying to bring her ball for M.E. to throw(M.E. can't throw a ball, but Nessie doesn't know that) Nessie lets M.E. ride on her back and pull her hair. They even cuddle together. Link just tolerates M.E. He mostly wants to be by my side at all times.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Who Told My Daughter to Start Growing So Fast?

I can't believe it! M.E. is approaching 6 months already. Her last pediatrician appointment, Dr. Saul said she needs to start on baby foods now because she's reached the point of needing more food. So I caved, and she has been doing great! She loves pears, peaches, squash, and sweet potatoes. She doesn't love peas. She also does really well with rice cereal. She anticipates that spoon flying into her mouth. My hungry, hungry hippo is up to 15 pounds now!

M.E. rolls over all the time, to the point she will only sleep on her tummy. She also sticks her butt in the air and scoots around. Her top canines are coming in, so we will have a little Dracula on our hands soon. She sits in her walker and watches Yo Gabba Gabba. She isn't completely holding her bottle on her own yet, but is trying. She loves to push herself up and look around, once she spots me or Robert she will start giggling. She has such a cute giggle. My baby is so cute, I love her so much. M.E. still greets me every morning with a big smile on her face. She is so beautiful.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Pie Bird

We went to Solvang on Saturday, with my mother. I didn't take as many photos as I wanted to, but we did the usual: Chocolate Sodas from Ingeborgs, bought another Danish tile for the collection, Danish cookies for the family, and went into every shop possible. This year we happened to come across a Pie Bird. You bake it into your pie so it doesn't overflow. And, coincidently, my pies always overflow. So I will give this lovely bird a try. I'm pretty excited.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Leah & Cory

Robert's sister, Leah, was sealed for time and all eternity to a one Mr. Cory. He is the newest addition to the family, and we are happy to welcome him and call him our brother.

They were married on Friday the 13th of August 2010. Either this means they are gonna have a honeymoon baby or their trials will be ten-fold (if you're superstitious) Let's hope not for their sake.

The morning started out early with hair and makeup. We all arrived at the Salt Lake Temple for the sealing, which went lovely. That was the first sealing I had ever been invited to besides my own. I was crying of course.
After the sealing, Leah, Aline (Robert's mom), and I headed to the Bride's room to put Mrs. Leah in her outside wedding dress, touch up her hair and makeup, attach her fascinating veil, and put on her cute red shoes that I forgot to get a picture of. We all had a gluten free luncheon at Rodizio Grill, I heart that place. And finished up the night with a reception held in their honor at Wheeler Farm. I know the photographer, Kathrine, got a lot of great photos and I can't wait to see them! Needless to say, I have never seen Leah look so beautiful and happy. She chose a great guy, and he has a lot of responsibility on his hands now. Robert and I both know how much they complete each other.
Congratulations Leah & Cory!

I love you, Leah!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

4 Months of Parenthood

We are both still trying to get it down. But I'd say we are A+ students so far.

About M.E.:
M.E has been sleeping through the night for over a month now. She is growing bigger and stronger each day. She LOVES watching TV. She will focus on it and when she sees something she likes, she gives the cutest giggle. M.E. is trying to rollover, but mostly just wiggles herself until she is upside down. She gets "tummy time" in the pool, which thankfully she loves being in the water. She has allergies just like us. She loves to grab Nessie's hair. M.E. loves to be talked to and she will hold a conversation with you, one you wont be able to understand, but a conversation none the less. She is starting to nap better during the day and doesn't mind being changed now. She does not sleep in the same bed as us. She sleeps in the same room as us and that is good enough. She is still on formula. I refuse to jeopardize her immune system with baby food until she is 6 months. The pediatrician thought it would be a good idea to wait with her since I have a fair share of food allergies. I really don't want her to suffer from the same disease I do. Other than all that she is generally a happy baby that keeps her parents busy and has her Daddy wrapped around her itty bitty finger. She has filled our life with joy and completes our family.

About Bethany:
I am tired. I'm forgetful. I miss hanging with friends. I miss going wherever I want when I want. I love my dogs, and am sorry I don't get to walk them or play with them as often. I probably don't give Robert the constant attention that I used to. To my single/childless friends, I'm sorry I don't see you as often and that our schedules don't always coincide. I love you anyways. So far all the plans I had about how I wanted to raise M.E. has worked out. I love her dearly and need her in my life. I haven't needed my anti-anxiety meds for a few months now. She keeps me busy enough that I don't have the time to focus on my anxieties or my obsessive compulsive behavior.

About Robert:
He works so hard. We both share the joys of 24/7 working. He gets up and goes to work where he gets paid  from his hard labor, and then he comes home and works some more, where he is rewarded with big smiles and giggles. He has become very patient and has taken a loving to fatherhood. I know he is tired. I know he misses friend time as well. I know he misses alone time with me and spur of the moment adventures. He loves his daughter and his daughter loves him. He puts in more effort than I do with the dogs, and helps out so much with cleaning and laundry. I couldn't have found a better man.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

An Eventful July

July started out rough, but it also started out amazing. Since my brother was in town for River's temple work the weekend of Independence Day, we had a family BBQ and saw fireworks. Saturday, July 3rd, our family got together for swimming and Robert and I provided a gluten free feast. We had hamburgers, vegetable skewers, grilled pineapple, baked beans by Shelly, home made lemonade, "Fourth of July Floats" which is just red or blue colored soda pop mixed with vanilla ice cream, and brownies by Shelly. Everything was scrumptious. M.E. got in her cute watermelon swim suit and joined her pops and uncle in the water. Then Nessie splashed her and M.E. was done swimming.

I have been working on a few more crafts. I have made 2 more dresses for M.E. and pajama pants. All these, of course, wont fit her for another year, but I am getting a head start on things. I, with the help of my mother, have been working on a few dresses for myself. Also on my plate I am working on a birthday present for my Mother-in-Law, updating a few old shirts with my own creative iron on transfers, and new head bands for M.E., all the while making and organizing my Etsy things. I am pretty busy. But I have to keep busy or my mind will wander to the things that un-motivate me.

Robert and I have created a new hobby for ourselves. It's called "Garage Sale-ing". It's an amazing thing. I have found some beautiful eclectic things that I am just so excited about. I found a chair to match my Great-Grandmother's vanity. I'm going to recover it. I'm so excited. I have found a beautiful mirror surrounded by  vintage filigree in a lovely blue. I also found old patterns dated back to the 30's, NEVER USED! Old vintage clothes: sweaters, nightgowns, and a dress. And my mom gave me a bunch of fabric and a button collection that used to be my Grandmother's.

Robert found my art supplies in the attic. I am very excited to start designing again.

M.E. is trying to roll over. She has an infectious smile and her giggles are adorable. I feel she is starting to teethe. Ugh. Oh well, she still greets me every morning with a happy, smiley face. I love her to bits. She is so beautiful. I call her "my little strawberry" because she has the coloring of a strawberry blonde, like my brother, Richard. Her skin tone is warm, like peaches and creme, her hair is light and fluffy like a baby chick. her eyelashes and brows are fair.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

The Road to Recovery

This week has been strange and ironic for me. I don't really know where to begin. We lost Kiersten. Two years ago I lost River. My friends Josh, Jared, Tamra and I all lost nieces in the same circumstance. We have each other to talk to about our feelings and know that the other understands completely. Yesterday was Kiersten's service. Yesterday we did Temple work for River. Both events were just beautiful beyond belief. Both events made me so happy inside. Roo (Kiersten) has a family that loves her so much. They put together a lovely and overwhelmingly warm service. She deserved such a memorial. She was given to an amazing family. River was not so lucky. Her parents were sick with alcohol addiction. She was loved but probably didn't realize it. I know she felt love from us yesterday. I feel her close by me. Trying to help me heal. I have gone 2 years holding everything in and have not moved forward in this process. I need to. I need to talk it out. I need a listener. I know all of my friends will listen, but I feel like I need someone who went through the same thing in order to understand my thoughts and feelings. I also need to listen to others when they need to talk and heal. Helping others helps me heal. I think that's why I would throw myself into service projects. I love to serve. I know that I am doing good for myself and others when I serve. I want to serve the Jones family in any way I can. I know we are all children of God, and he loves us and knows each one of us. He knows our strengths and our struggles. He is there for us always. I love River. I know I will see her again, and we will embrace. And she will call me Buff, like she always did before.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Current Thoughts

Loosing Kiersten this week brought back all the hidden emotions from loosing River. I knew I hadn't fully healed from River's death and I know I never will. But, I didn't realize how much I was holding in. I wanted so badly to help the Jones family in any way I could. Through helping others I see myself start to heal. Yes, I will always be emotional over loosing my amazing niece and I will never get over it. Getting over means forgetting. I don't ever want to forget River, just as the Jones family never wants to forget Kiersten. My heart hurts for her family and friends, I remember the pain so clearly. I would never want anyone to carry that pain with them. I will always be grateful to everyone who reached out their open and loving arms to me and my family to help us heal. I know the Jones family does too. They are overwhelmed with love and kindness from others who are so willing to help them heal. I love our community, I love how we look out for each other and care for one another.

Youth is so fragile. Take care of your little ones. Be involved in their lives. Love them for their faults. Point them in the direction of progression. In the end they will be more than willing to take care of you.

Depression is real. It physically hurts inside. It's a spreading disease. If you feel someone you love is depressed, reach out and hold them and just listen. If you yourself is depressed, there are people who love you so much and are willing to listen and help you become strong again.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

M.E.'s First Trip to Disneyland

I kept telling myself I would never take a baby to Disneyland. But in all honesty it wasn't that bad. M.E. slept the majority of the day, and when she wasn't sleeping, she was eating or just being her giggly happy self. She never seemed to fuss at all. I don't know how I got so lucky. I was expecting the day to just be awful.

Robert and I were able to do two adult rides and then we went on four kiddie rides with M.E. We first got pictures with Chip n' Dale.

Then while Robert and I were on Indiana Jones, Granddad and Grandma took M.E. to meet Winnie the Pooh, Eyeore, and Tigger too!

Then we went to see the new baby goats at Big Thunder Ranch Petting Zoo. Then off to Fantasy Land to ride Casey Jr., Dumbo, and Small World.

After all the Fantasy Land fun, we headed over to California Adventure to ride Tower of Terror and eat lunch. This is the super cute face I got while I was eating.

We went back over to Disneyland to get a picture in front of Sleeping Beauty Castle and jump on the Jungle Cruise. Lions, and Tigers, and Elephants! Oh my!

When we got home, M.E. was sooo tired, she slept pretty well that night.