Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Expectations and the Unexpected

Today I am writing in the blog out of boredom, due to a super sore neck and having to constantly be resting. I know I should really be doing updates, but I'm using an iPad at the moment - thus I am not very good at using it.

Last week Robert and I celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary. We decided to take trip down memory lane and stay in the same hotel we stayed in for our honeymoon back in 2006. Ah, The Lemon Tree, oh how beautiful and amazing you are. We also went to Disneyland, where it was cold and we were not really prepared for that. I wrenched my neck that night and have been recovering ever since. I thought it was just a knotted muscle that would eventually go away the next day. Wrong! It has progressively gotten worse as each day goes on. Not being able to hold and care for my child has been the hardest part of all this. She wants me to hold her and play with her so badly, but I am in too much pain to do so. My breaking heart hurts the most though. Missing work isn't that great of a deal either. I need to work, we can't afford for me not to. Which brings me to the next part...

I love my job. I am thankful it is only 2 days a week. But like most mothers, I would rather be at home with my daughter. I miss her every time I leave. I feel like I am missing out on so much. I pray that that an opportunity will come forth and give me the option to not work until M.E. is older and I am working in the field of my passion.

I would love for our family to be able to afford a vacation that isn't to Utah. Utah is not a vacation place for me at all. I lived there, I don't need to visit the state every year. Let's try something new and exciting. An adventure perhaps! San Antonio, San Francisco, London, Boston, Sydney? Anywhere but Utah. I'll be sure to let you all know how the family reunion goes this coming July...